Holden

Sorry Rach, but I have to post these pictures! I got the chance a few nights ago to go see my lil nephew Holden in the NICU, and what an experience it was. Farrah came along too and met Rach and I there. Her eyes were full of tears the whole time, which of course made my eyes tear also. It's such an amazing feeling being in there, all of the little babies and machines and beeping, yet so spiritual at the same time. Rach has been blessed with some awesome nurses, one in particular, Linda. Seeing her with Holden was unreal. You can tell she truly cares about this lil guy. She talks to him and takes so many pictures of him, she is honestly an angel. There is no other way to describe her. Watching her care for my sweet nephew was so touching, it makes me emotional thinking about it, she is without a doubt fulfilling her mission here by being with these sweet babies. Thanks Rach and Farr for your spirit and bringing it into that environment.

Rach, I admire your strength and positive attitude and your faith in the Lord and His plan for you. You are truly an inspiration, I love you. I feel so blessed to be around you Rachel. I can't imagine the feelings you feel right now, but I've seen a glimpse and I know its hard, but I want you to know that whatever happens, you, of all people, can and will get through it. I have no doubt in my mind that Holden will be just fine because of your unwavering faith and trust in the Lord. Your boys are so blessed to have you as their mom, really. No matter how much I spoil Lennon and give him kisses and loves, at the end of the day, he wants you. I can't imagine a greater feeling for you. Thanks for bein who you are. Sisters stick together :) I love you and I love helping you. The more time I spend with you, the better :)

Anyway here are some pictures of the lil guy, Rachel had the chance to bathe him and I'm so glad I got to be there, and snap some photo's!

Grandma's birthday/Mayci's blessing

What an awesome day today was. First of all it was fast Sunday. I love fast Sundays. I feel the spirit so much more on fast Sundays and it's usually right when I need it the most. Second of all, it was little Mayci Jo's baby blessing today. What an awesome blessing it was. Shawn, good job, you brought the spirit into the room to start the sacrament meeting off on the right foot. Third of all, Jake, Dad, and Farrah all bore their testimonies today and honestly I couldn't be more proud to be a part of the family I am. It was so good to hear the testimonies of my family members and to know how strongly they felt about the truthfulness of the Gospel. Thanks you guys for that. I cried :) Fourth of all it was my Grandma's 85th birthday today! She is such a treat. When I look at her I can't help but smile. She is an amazing person. Words cannot describe how amazing she is. Being around her you can feel how close she is to the Lord, and she truly does love you. She's a great example to us all as she serves others and LOVES EVERYONE! Thanks Grandma :) Love you.

Well, that about wraps up today, does it sound neat to you? Because it was neat. If I haven't told you before, I Love You.

-Sincerely, borris

(P.S. Mayce has definitely grown since these pictures, I just didn't have any recent ones of her :) )

Help Please

Does anyone have any ideas of what to get for a bridal shower? I don't wanna get something super expensive. Any help would be greatly appreciated!!!

-borris

Crying...

...I do it a lot. Is that normal? Is crying healthy? I swear I cry more than the average person, and I swear I cry over the dumbest things. I guess it's better to show your emotions on your sleeve then to hold them in. Sometimes I try to hold things in, and I do good for about a week, then I ALWAYS have a break down. It's pathetic really. Oh, and whenever I read Farrah's blog, it makes me cry, it really does tug at my lil heart strings. Even just looking at sweet Lennon's little face gets me so teary eyed, I am right now thinking about it. I honestly can't wait til the day comes when I am getting married in the temple. Because then, I will be able to have kids :) Whenever I hear my sisters talk about how awesome it was to be sealed to your spouse for eternity gets me super excited. Also, it motivates me to be a better person and to continue to be worthy to enter into the temple because that is what my spouse will be looking for in me. A worthy girl.

My sisters always have the best advice, and one night in particular, my sister gave me the best advice anyone could ever get. I am positive it was through the spirit that she was able to tell this to me....I'm not trying to brag, but I think a lot about others. Too much in fact. My life now is stagnent because I think too much about others and I lose myself in it all. I lose my goals in life, I lose motivation to do anything for myself and to be successful. And my sister said that I need to focus more on my own happiness. Be a little more selfish. Go to the temple more, read my scriptures more, write in my journal, hang out and date good people who have the same goals and values in life. Surround yourself with goodness and get my spirit uplifted. Build a stronger testimony of the church, it can always be strengthened.

I ramble so much it's unreal, but I don't have my journal handy so this will have to do. The bottom line is, when we struggle, when we cry about sad things, that is when we need to turn to the Lord the most. I have heard that my whole life, but never really thought it would happen to me until now. Things change, but in the end everything will work out. For now, I am going to continue doing what I'm doing, but put the Lord first in it all. Here I am crying, but whats new?

This is so long, but I wanna thank my family. I know for a fact I would not be where I am if it weren't for them. My mom has been the best through everything, she has been talking to me about it and comforting me about everything and I couldn't be more grateful for that. Just to get a call from someone and talk about nothing makes me feel good. So thanks mom. Thanks to Rachel and Farrah. I can't tell you how many times you have saved me. I love you.
Goodnight.
-borris

Sorry...

...For my last post. It was probably pretty depressing, but I don't know how else to get out my frustration other than writing. I have honestly done everything. I wish I could tell some of you whats been goin on but I can't haha. I'm sorry, that can be frustrating, but if I do end up talking to you and you ask me whats up I'll tell you...maybe. It's a MYSTERY!!! It would probably sound pretty dumb to most of you, but for some reason it's been pretty hard on me. I don't know when I will get over it, and I sure hope it comes soon because honestly, it's getting pretty old. Just gonna put it in the Lords hands. :)

On a lighter note, I couldn't be more excited to go to Hawaii in a few days. It'll be so nice to get out of here and enjoy the sunlight and the beach. I am conviced the ocean is God's most beautiful creation (other than the mountains). It's full of life. There is endless amount of living that we know so LITTLE about. It's amazing to me. I wish I could explore it more. It'd be a cool adventure, I think.

Also, my sisters blog the other day made me realize something that is pretty important. Friendship. I think to help be a good friend to others you have to be your own best friend. This is something I struggle with, and it sucks. I am slowly learning not to care what others think about my appearance or about who they think I am because of my physical nature, because those are the kind of people that don't care about you. Anyway...thanks Farr's for giving me that "ah ha!" moment.

Rach and I have been spending a lot of time together and it's been the best, especially at this time. Lil Lennon is quite the angel. Just looking at that kid makes my day. Thanks for talkin with me and giving me words of comfort. You have no idea how much that means to me, honestly.

Mommy and Daddy, you've heard it a million times but its true, you are the best parents in the world! Thanks for your support and endless amount of love. Hope you know how much I love and appreciate you guys.

Anyway...I'll stop rambling. Look forward to some totally tubular pictures from Havvvaaiii!

-borris

Change (read at your own cost) :)

I need a change. Or, I need to change. There are things in my life that I get so frustrated about and so mad at myself about and it really does take its toll on me. There are things in my life I need to change and there are some people in my life I need to bring closer, and some I need to push away.

Not too long ago, I was filling out my mission papers. I was so ready and committed to this change in my life and so excited for the new adventures I would have and the interesting people I would get to meet. But, something occurred to me while I was reading my scriptures and praying and going to the temple...I realized that I need to do these things everyday. Preparing for this mission, I think, has actually been preparing me for something else. Whether it be marriage, or going to BYU Hawaii, or I'm not exactly sure what, but I have an overwhelming feeling that that is the Lords plan for me.

So, for now I am trying to change. I am trying to be happy, I am trying to do what is right and in all reality, that is exactly what life is all about. Doing your best. Sometimes I wish I could go back and change things in the past because things now would be so much different, but I can't, and it sucks, but there is nothing I can do about it now besides living in the now. I'm sorry, I'm just rambling and venting, but I need to get this out somehow.

I am excited for change, but at the same time, it isn't easy. Life is hard. But I have so many things I need to be grateful for. Count my blessings. I love you, I love Heavenly Father, and I love life! (sometimes) :) anyway...sorry you had to read this, it's just been driving me nuts.

-Sincerely, borris

I Wish...

...I could play these,
I'm gonna try, but I may not be successful. But at least I'm gonna try. I would give you an update, but there is nothing to give an update on. My life is still just as boring and non-eventful as it was before. All I have to say is that I have the best family in the world, I love them with every fiber of my being. I am truly blessed.


Sincerely, Borris

Matthew...

...Story Time!! I think it's pretty funny/cute/heart warming. Here goes...

So like I have said in older posts, I go to institute every Tuesday and Thursday morning and it's awesome. I usually pick up one of my friends on the way when I go but for the first day I was a lone ranger. My friend had a doctors appointment so she wasn't able to make it the first day with me. Not gonna lie, it's not easy for me to go to things by myself, but after this first day, I have been totally fine.

Anyway, I walk into class and I am about 2 minutes late and the class had already started singing the hymn. I kinda panicked because as I looked around I saw no empty chairs. So I kind of stood there for a minute looking around, then I spotted a seat, right in the middle, by this boy. Now he isn't just a boy, he is "special" (if you know what I mean). Straight to the Celestial. I decided to go ahead and have a seat by him. This was probably the best decision I could have made in a long while. As the hymn went on, this boy was singing to the Heavens, I'm convinced. He was singing so loud and enunciating every letter in every word. It was the best. I had a grin from ear to ear while singing the hymn. I didn't want it to end!

As the hymn ended and we had our prayer and stuff, our teacher told us we had to go around to as many people as possible, introduce ourselves, and state one interesting fact about us. (Standard first day procedures) So, I stood up, along with everyone in the class, and began to introduce myself to people. There were a couple minutes where everyone around me was talking to someone and I was just kind of loitering, looking around. I then turned to the boy next to me and I asked him with my arm outstretched "what's your name?" and he turned to me and said "my name is Matthew". He then shook my hand, well not only did he shake it, he squoze the life out of it haha. One of the most firm handshakes I have ever gotten. After he shook my hand he said "there's nothing interesting about me" and I told him "that's ok, I'm not very interesting either", then he smiled at me and we all sat down and enjoyed the rest of class.

From then on, I have made it a goal to say hi to Matthew everyday in class. He loves it. He sometimes sits by me and turns to me and says "You're Becca, the cutie girl" and I just laugh and thank him. What a cutie huh? As classes have gone by I've noticed Matthew writing all during class, what looked to be notes. Lo and behold I was right because the other day he came up to me and gave me one and he also gave me a huge hug while saying "I'm so proud of you" and just yesterday he gave me another note with a hug saying "It's so good to see you". Haha, it really does make my day. What a special kid huh? I will write you what the notes say. I wish you could see his handwriting, its so cute.

The first note he gave me says: :) Yo hey Becca How are you? Oh becca why did the hamburger go to the gym? It wanted better buns. What do you call a cow with a twitch? Beef jerky. Im so proud of you. Silly Becca, the cutie girl!

The second note says: Yo hey Becca How are you? Oh becca, what do you call a cow with no legs? Ground beef. I'm so proud of you, silly Becca the cutie girl!

Hahaha I read these and I really did laugh at the jokes. They are clever. He is the best. I'm glad I got to meet this special person :) hope you enjoyed my little story haha.

-borris

Things that make me laugh...

...that probably shouldn't

1. The sound of people falling. It kills me. Especially down the stairs. Thinking about it now makes me giggle.

2. Rachels header...the ball looked like it was 50 lbs. About decapitated the poor lass.

3. Lennon eating it hard. He falls harder than any kid I've ever known then he looks at you with the most concerned eyes. If you laugh and say he's ok he'll just pop right up. I laugh...I laugh hard.

4. Body surfing in Hawaii with Emily and Kobie and Farrah and Rachel.
Number 1 funniest: Farrah...you basically body surfed right into the beach. Remember when the waves crashed right onto the shore? We decided to give body surfing a try, you were over it after one try. After seeing you come up with your hair matted and covered in sand I lost it, it will never be erased from my mind.
Number 2 funniest: Kobie...She took a big wave, much too big for her little body and I was just a bystander, watching. Her legs trailing that wave was the funniest thing the eyes could see. They were flailing and flopping around...the poor girl was getting battered in that wave hahaha you could see it in her legs!! I laughed...I laughed hard.
Number 3 funniest: Rachel...after every wave she was stoked, and so was everyone watching!!! They got a nice peep show little did she know. Waving her arms in the air, cheering to herself, without knowing her top came down exposing her white as snow BOOBIES! Couldn't have laughed harder.
Number 4 funniest: Emily...You came out of every wave like you just fought a war. Haha I will never forget how you looked after emerging from surfing a wave. Your hair was a freaking mess, and you were trying to get the salt water out of your eyes, and probably your hair out of your eyes. That made me laugh. Good times.

5. Watching dad boogie board. Man is he a treasure. He doesn't know how, so he catches the wave after it has already broken, then he just gets nailed...hard. You can't see anything but the white foam from the wave, then after a minute he comes out gasping for air. Too funny.

6. People that think they can sing, but totally can't. Sometimes when they are with me I will actually laugh out loud. Emily, you know what I mean :).

7. When mom gets crap all over her mouth, and keeps eating because she can't feel it. She will have like a whole lettuce leaf on her chin and just talk away, little does she know, no one is listening, just staring. Haha mom you are the best.

I wish I could think of more, and I probably will once I stop writing, but thats all I got folks. Hope you all got a good laugh, because I sure did.

-borris

amor, die Liebe, 喜爱, love

Love, Love, Love.
Love, Love, Love.
Love, Love, Love.

There's nothing you can do that can't be done.
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game.
It's easy.

Nothing you can make that can't be made.
No one you can save that can't be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you in time.
It's easy.

All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need.

All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need.

Nothing you can know that isn't known.
Nothing you can see that isn't shown.
Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.
It's easy.

All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need.

All you need is love (All together, now!)
All you need is love. (Everybody!)
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need (love is all you need)
(love is all you need) (love is all you need)
(love is all you need) Yesterday (love is all you need)
(love is all you need) (love is all you need)

Yee-hai!
Oh yeah!
love is all you need, love is all you need,love is all you need, love is all you need, oh yeah oh hell yea! love is all you need love is all you need love is all you need.

Couldn't have said it better myself...

-borris

Living With Girls...or Gorillas?

...So I decided I would clean my room in my apartment today because it desperately needed it. The bathroom wasn't looking too good. I cleaned the bathroom, got on my hands and knees and scrubbed the floor, got all of Autumns hair off the floor, and cleaned the toilet and sink. Looks good :). Speaking of Autumns hair, it is EVERYWHERE!!! hahaha it covers the bathroom floor, there was maybe like 4 of my hairs in there, pretty gnarly.

Anyway...after I finished the bathroom I decided I would vacuum the carpet in our room, it was pretty nasty. As I was cleaning I noticed the vacuum wasn't picking up everything, just kind of making noise. So I turned it off looked at the bottom and noticed this...

Look at all of that hair!!!!! I couldn't believe my eyes!

This is after I cleaned one side of it...


This is the finished product. Haha, I found it pretty humorous, but also pretty disgusting. I guess that's what you get when A. You don't live with your mom and B. You live with lazy people.

Sorry if I grossed out anyone, I just had to share :)

-borris (aka cinderella)

Coincidence?

Coincidence: A sequence of events that although accidental seems to have been planned or arranged.

So, reading back to my old post I have come to realize that some things I am doing in my life portray everything I said in my last post. Coincidence? I don't think so.

I have been going to institute every Tuesday and Thursday mornings and it is so awesome. My teacher is the best. He is so enthusiastic and excited about the Gospel, and he loves life. He is just an all around happy guy. Lately we have been talking about Job and Solomon and those stories are amazing. I recommend every member of the church to reading the book of Job and Ecclesiastes, there is so much to learn, and some very inspiring words...Anyway, back to my original point, as I have been going to class and listening and learning I realize that everything Brother Bartholemew was teaching I had just written in my blog. Isn't that interesting?

I write about how I should appreciate all of Gods gifts and know that he is all knowing and he is the most powerful, and in the book of Job, he also learns the same thing. In a much harsher way, I might add, boils he has to scrape off his body and so on and so forth.

Also the book of Ecclesiastes it mainly talks about how we should focus on eternal things in life. And in the beginning of the third chapter it talks about "seasons" and how each season comes and goes and how we should grow from the "season" we are in and that each season is temporary. Maybe you had to be a part of class, so I hope you understand what I am talking about. Seasons can be taken as trials or as good times in our lives, each one is temporary, whether we like it or not, but we need to be prepared regardless to face what is coming next. We need to learn from the "season" we are in and be ready for the next "season" to come.

I found that message to be pretty powerful and very much needed in my life. God does answer prayers, and I consider mine answered. The Gospel is the best!

-borris

Appreciation

I love the mountains
I love babies and kids
I love thinking about my future family
I love my family
I love thinking about my aunt Becca's emotional hug she gave me
I love learning about the Gospel
I love feeling the spirit
I love my mom and dad
I love the spiritual moments I share with my mom in church
I love Dr. Pepper
I love the sun
I love flip flops
I love laughing, hard

Sometimes I get so caught up in the negativity in life that I forget all the things I have that makes me happy. I get discouraged, often, and it's not good. I know some of my posts have been depressing but writing helps me express myself and get things off my chest. Also, just looking around at all the things God has created for us is truly amazing. Just the opportunity to witness a new life enter this world is a miracle in and of itself. The mountains are so beautiful. We are so lucky to be able to look at those everyday and see the changes they go through throughout the year.

I guess appreciation is the key word here in this post. Life is good, life is hard, and life is supposed to be enjoyed.

Sorry I'm so serious all the time, but these are reminders to me that I shouldn't forget. and I shouldn't be discouraged because I have such a good life.

Thanks to everyone who helps me realize that. I love you all.

-borris