...For my last post. It was probably pretty depressing, but I don't know how else to get out my frustration other than writing. I have honestly done everything. I wish I could tell some of you whats been goin on but I can't haha. I'm sorry, that can be frustrating, but if I do end up talking to you and you ask me whats up I'll tell you...maybe. It's a MYSTERY!!! It would probably sound pretty dumb to most of you, but for some reason it's been pretty hard on me. I don't know when I will get over it, and I sure hope it comes soon because honestly, it's getting pretty old. Just gonna put it in the Lords hands. :)
On a lighter note, I couldn't be more excited to go to Hawaii in a few days. It'll be so nice to get out of here and enjoy the sunlight and the beach. I am conviced the ocean is God's most beautiful creation (other than the mountains). It's full of life. There is endless amount of living that we know so LITTLE about. It's amazing to me. I wish I could explore it more. It'd be a cool adventure, I think.
Also, my sisters blog the other day made me realize something that is pretty important. Friendship. I think to help be a good friend to others you have to be your own best friend. This is something I struggle with, and it sucks. I am slowly learning not to care what others think about my appearance or about who they think I am because of my physical nature, because those are the kind of people that don't care about you. Anyway...thanks Farr's for giving me that "ah ha!" moment.
Rach and I have been spending a lot of time together and it's been the best, especially at this time. Lil Lennon is quite the angel. Just looking at that kid makes my day. Thanks for talkin with me and giving me words of comfort. You have no idea how much that means to me, honestly.
Mommy and Daddy, you've heard it a million times but its true, you are the best parents in the world! Thanks for your support and endless amount of love. Hope you know how much I love and appreciate you guys.
Anyway...I'll stop rambling. Look forward to some totally tubular pictures from Havvvaaiii!
-borris
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Change (read at your own cost) :)
I need a change. Or, I need to change. There are things in my life that I get so frustrated about and so mad at myself about and it really does take its toll on me. There are things in my life I need to change and there are some people in my life I need to bring closer, and some I need to push away.
Not too long ago, I was filling out my mission papers. I was so ready and committed to this change in my life and so excited for the new adventures I would have and the interesting people I would get to meet. But, something occurred to me while I was reading my scriptures and praying and going to the temple...I realized that I need to do these things everyday. Preparing for this mission, I think, has actually been preparing me for something else. Whether it be marriage, or going to BYU Hawaii, or I'm not exactly sure what, but I have an overwhelming feeling that that is the Lords plan for me.
So, for now I am trying to change. I am trying to be happy, I am trying to do what is right and in all reality, that is exactly what life is all about. Doing your best. Sometimes I wish I could go back and change things in the past because things now would be so much different, but I can't, and it sucks, but there is nothing I can do about it now besides living in the now. I'm sorry, I'm just rambling and venting, but I need to get this out somehow.
I am excited for change, but at the same time, it isn't easy. Life is hard. But I have so many things I need to be grateful for. Count my blessings. I love you, I love Heavenly Father, and I love life! (sometimes) :) anyway...sorry you had to read this, it's just been driving me nuts.
-Sincerely, borris
Not too long ago, I was filling out my mission papers. I was so ready and committed to this change in my life and so excited for the new adventures I would have and the interesting people I would get to meet. But, something occurred to me while I was reading my scriptures and praying and going to the temple...I realized that I need to do these things everyday. Preparing for this mission, I think, has actually been preparing me for something else. Whether it be marriage, or going to BYU Hawaii, or I'm not exactly sure what, but I have an overwhelming feeling that that is the Lords plan for me.
So, for now I am trying to change. I am trying to be happy, I am trying to do what is right and in all reality, that is exactly what life is all about. Doing your best. Sometimes I wish I could go back and change things in the past because things now would be so much different, but I can't, and it sucks, but there is nothing I can do about it now besides living in the now. I'm sorry, I'm just rambling and venting, but I need to get this out somehow.
I am excited for change, but at the same time, it isn't easy. Life is hard. But I have so many things I need to be grateful for. Count my blessings. I love you, I love Heavenly Father, and I love life! (sometimes) :) anyway...sorry you had to read this, it's just been driving me nuts.
-Sincerely, borris
Monday, March 22, 2010
I Wish...
...I could play these,
I'm gonna try, but I may not be successful. But at least I'm gonna try. I would give you an update, but there is nothing to give an update on. My life is still just as boring and non-eventful as it was before. All I have to say is that I have the best family in the world, I love them with every fiber of my being. I am truly blessed.
Sincerely, Borris
I'm gonna try, but I may not be successful. But at least I'm gonna try. I would give you an update, but there is nothing to give an update on. My life is still just as boring and non-eventful as it was before. All I have to say is that I have the best family in the world, I love them with every fiber of my being. I am truly blessed.
Sincerely, Borris
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