Thank You

Over this past holiday how can you not think of the many things you should be thankful for? Sometimes (well not sometimes, all the time) I take for granted the things that may seem so small, but to some would give anything for. For example, my bed. I went and saw the movie Blindside the other day and it was a really humbling movie. The main character is taken in by a family and there was a scene that touched me, he was told that the bed he was standing in front of was his and he said he had never had one before. Brought tears to my eyes and also made me think of the many things I have that I need to be grateful for.

I can go on and on about everything I am grateful for, but I will spare you the time. I just wanted to say that the only thing that honestly and truly makes me happy and that I am most definitely most thankful for would be my family. I believe I have the greatest family on Earth. Thinking about what every single one of my family members have done for me makes me emotional. You guys are honestly the best. I thank my Heavenly Father everyday for the blessing of being sent down to live with the family that I have. I hope I have somehow been a good sister and daughter. You have no idea how much love I feel towards every single one of you. Thank You for everything you have done and most of all always being there for me. I love you.

Anyway, I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving and ate til their stomachs burst!

P.S. I am seriously considering serving a mission. Still in the thinking process though. :)

-Sincerely, borris

Pay It Forward

So the other day Rachel and I were at Costco and I was really cravin one of their hotdogs. I mean, who can resist right? So we bought all the items Rach had and I made my way through the damn of grocery carts to the concession stand. I ordered my hotdog with a beverage and at this point my mouth was watering. The girl gave me the total and I began to pull out my credit card, oooopsie! Little did I know, they only take cash or check, so I asked Rach if she could spare me some cash, she had none. My face was starting to get hot, I was getting embarrassed because there was a train of people behind me waiting. I turned back to the hotdog girl and told her "well I guess I'll have to pass on this today, sorry." But before I could turn away, the lady behind me said "You know what, put that on my order, I'll get the same." I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I was so shocked. No one has done that for me, ever. I began to tell her no, don't do that, really it's fine, but she was persistant. Then I thanked her, told her how nice that was and that I would "pay it forward".

People like that make this world a better place. That seriously made my day, and it gave me a new respect for some people out there. The whole rest of that day I couldn't stop thinking about how I was going to pay that forward, and how freaking nice that was of her! That is so rare to see these days I think. Anyway, the point of the story is to just say I think we all need a little bit of that in our lives, don't you think? Just one kind gesture, or act of service; it can really change some people. I know it has for me.
Have a wonderful day!!! And HALLOWEEN!!!!
-borris

I Hate...

...Being alone. I feel like I am alone 24/7 and it honestly makes me feel so depressed. Don't ask me why because I really couldn't tell you. I guess I get thinking about certain things, mainly the past, and it saddens me. I was reading my friends blog last night and she basically said everything for me. I miss a lot of things that have now changed and I want so badly for them to be back and sometimes I think that those things are going to make me happy. Here I am crying my eyes out talking about the past when we all know we are supposed to learn from the past and grow and move on, but why is it so easy for some and so hard for others?

One thing I really miss is seeing my friends every single day at school. That is literally the only reason I went. It was so much fun. I miss playing on a soccer team. I miss the whole part of the word team and everything that comes with it. I miss always having friends around, they are all dispersed now and doing their own things and it is so insane! We really are growing up. I miss the most knowing that I will always have that one friend that is willing to hang out with me every second of everyday.

The list could go on and on, I just wish I could be one of the lost boys and live in neverland and never grow up. Life really would be easier if we could all just stay at one age, I think so at least.

I'm not sure why all of this came up, but all I'm trying to say is that I really hate being alone. I know I shouldn't feel this way because my Heavenly Father is always here, but sometimes I can't help the feelings. So if any of you ever get a random call from yours truly (me) you'll know why. I just need someone to talk to is all, maybe for a couple minutes. And if any of you need someone to talk to don't hesitate to call me.

Please don't be worried, I am honestly just venting. Hopefully not very many people follow my blog :) I think I need to learn how to love myself. Sometimes I tell myself I am going to write down things that I like about myself, but I start thinking about it and I can't think of one thing I like about me. I think this year is going to be all about that. Finding myself. Hopefully it won't take long :)

Anyway, I love you all, or whoever is reading this. I'm sorry if I've made you worry, but please don't. Have a great week/weekend!!! Call me :)

-borris

P.S. I just thought this picture was funny.

Being a Woman

So tonight I was reading a blog that I follow pretty religiously and she posted a link that I went to and I found this talk. Brought tears to my eyes.

"The scriptures give us names of several women who have blessed individuals and generations with their spiritual gifts. Eve, the mother of all living; Sarah; Rebekah; Rachel; Martha; Elisabeth; and Mary, the mother of our Savior, will always be honored and remembered. The scriptures also mention women whose names are unknown to us but who bless our lives through their examples and teachings, like the woman of Samaria whom Jesus met at the well of Sychar (see John 4), the ideal wife and mother described in Proverbs 31, and the faithful woman who was made whole just by touching the Savior’s clothes (see Mark 5:25–34).

As we look at the history of this earth and at the history of the restored Church of Jesus Christ, it becomes obvious that women hold a special place in our Father’s plan for the eternal happiness and well-being of His children.

I hope that my dear sisters throughout the world—grandmothers, mothers, aunts, and friends—never underestimate the power of their influence for good, especially in the lives of our precious children and youth!

President Heber J. Grant (1856–1945) said, “Without the devotion and absolute testimony of the living God in the hearts of our mothers, this Church would die.”1 And the writer of Proverbs said, “Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it” (Proverbs 22:6).

President Gordon B. Hinckley counseled the women of the Church:

“It is so tremendously important that the women of the Church stand strong and immovable for that which is correct and proper under the plan of the Lord. …

“We call upon the women of the Church to stand together for righteousness. They must begin in their own homes. They can teach it in their classes. They can voice it in their communities.”2

There is a saying that big gates move on small hinges. Sisters, your example in seemingly small things will make a big difference in the lives of our young people. The way you dress and groom yourselves, the way you talk, the way you pray, the way you testify, the way you live every day will make the difference. This includes which TV shows you watch, which music you prefer, and how you use the Internet. If you love to go to the temple, the young people who value your example will also love to go. If you adapt your wardrobe to the temple garment and not the other way around, they will know what you consider important, and they will learn from you.

You are marvelous sisters and great examples. Our youth are blessed by you, and the Lord loves you for that." -By President Dieter F. Uchtdorf Second Counselor in the First Presidency

There is plenty more, but I really liked this passage. It made me feel so good.

I love being a Woman...

-borris

Where The Freak Are You?????

Come on now, hasn't it been long enough? What the heck is my husband doing right now? Have we met? If we have, well I guess I don't like you very much at the moment haha. When will I find you? Such a weird freaking thought. Don't really know why I am posting this on my blog, but I am so deal with it :) haha. Just wondering what in the world I am going to do with my life. It's so frustrating not being able to know what is going to happen for me. Anyway, I'm just going to stop before I get going.

Have a great day everyone!!
Tune in again soon!
-borris

Advice maybe?

Well hello again everyone. I was just wondering if anyone out there could give me some advice...Sometimes I get frustrated. I know that its normal and all but I don't know how to handle my frustration. Sometimes I get to the point where I want to hit something, like the wall, or the TV or anything that is near me, and sometimes I actually do hit something. I know some of you didn't know this about me, but when I get frustrated when I'm around people I usually can hide it pretty well, or to some I seem kind of down. But when I'm by myself I have no clue what to do to get my frustration under control. I've thought about going on a run, but I hate running too much.

If any of you have any advice, please let me know! Thanks. Much Love
-borris

Just a Thought...

Do you ever wonder why you say, think, or do the things you do? Do you ever feel like it's someone or something that is influencing you in someway to make you feel the way you do or say the things you do or act the way you act? These are some of the questions that have been floating around in my head lately and I still haven't found an answer. Sometimes I feel like it's just me who is making me feel this way or say those things or do those things, but other times it seems like I am being pushed or pulled a certain way to make me do or say those things.

I wonder, after I do those things, why in the world I did that. It's not always with the mistakes I've made, but with the good decisions I have made also. Sometimes I go and talk to people I have never met and feel like I just made that persons day, or sometimes I will think things about myself and get my self-esteem so low that I can't even function. It makes me wonder if it's simply human or am I being influenced by someone/something to make these decisions...? I guess there are some ways I could find that out, but in the meantime I will still have these questions.

I've also wondered whether or not I should serve a mission. A few months ago I was having a hard time because I felt like I wasn't being productive in my life. I felt like I needed to hurry and choose a career path, or hurry and find someone I could marry, or hurry and prepare for a mission, but I realized after many tears and frustration, and with the help of a very smart man (my dad) that I don't need to rush into anything. My dad told me that basically things happen when they happen. Just do the things that I feel like I need to be doing and everything will fall into place. As far as a mission goes, I am getting closer and closer to being 21 and it's kind of freaking me out. My dad says that if I need to go then I will go, that I will know whether or not its going to happen when the time is right. What a smart guy huh? So simple.

Anyway, I just would like to give a shout out to my family. This past week I have felt more appreciation for them than I have for a long time. I wanna let you guys know how much I truly love you. I feel so blessed to be able to spend eternity with you guys. Living here on earth with you is bliss, but imagining living in Heaven with you sounds so amazing.

Farrah and Rachel, thank you for your examples. I couldn't ask for better sisters seriously. I love how close we have become and I appreciate all your advice in all I do. Your guys' opinions mean so much to me, and everything you advise I really take to heart. Thanks for everything. Chad and Jake, you guys are the bomb.com. I love watching you father your children. It helps me find someone that I could potentially marry. I look in them for characteristics that you guys have. I love you. Alix and Kobie, what can I say about you huh? True blessings to the family. I get teary eyed thinking about the life you could have had if you hadn't been placed in our home. I'm sorry I tease you guys all the time and I'm not the nicest always but just know that I love you unconditionally. Now that you are maturing and getting older I like to hang out with you more and see what your lives are like. You're so much fun. Mom and Dad, words cannot express the love I have for you two. I can't think of better parents, honestly. I know that whenever I need to talk about something I can go to you guys and come out feeling so good about myself, so relieved, humbled, and loved. Thanks for all you do for the family and I. Jamie, Angie, Shawn and B, you all know I love you :) Also, to my best friend, you really are the best. I miss ya, love you, and it'll be nice to see you soon haha :)

I think I got everyone in there, sorry for the weird post. It's been a weird day so far haha. Tune in again soon!!
Borris