Just a Thought...

Do you ever wonder why you say, think, or do the things you do? Do you ever feel like it's someone or something that is influencing you in someway to make you feel the way you do or say the things you do or act the way you act? These are some of the questions that have been floating around in my head lately and I still haven't found an answer. Sometimes I feel like it's just me who is making me feel this way or say those things or do those things, but other times it seems like I am being pushed or pulled a certain way to make me do or say those things.

I wonder, after I do those things, why in the world I did that. It's not always with the mistakes I've made, but with the good decisions I have made also. Sometimes I go and talk to people I have never met and feel like I just made that persons day, or sometimes I will think things about myself and get my self-esteem so low that I can't even function. It makes me wonder if it's simply human or am I being influenced by someone/something to make these decisions...? I guess there are some ways I could find that out, but in the meantime I will still have these questions.

I've also wondered whether or not I should serve a mission. A few months ago I was having a hard time because I felt like I wasn't being productive in my life. I felt like I needed to hurry and choose a career path, or hurry and find someone I could marry, or hurry and prepare for a mission, but I realized after many tears and frustration, and with the help of a very smart man (my dad) that I don't need to rush into anything. My dad told me that basically things happen when they happen. Just do the things that I feel like I need to be doing and everything will fall into place. As far as a mission goes, I am getting closer and closer to being 21 and it's kind of freaking me out. My dad says that if I need to go then I will go, that I will know whether or not its going to happen when the time is right. What a smart guy huh? So simple.

Anyway, I just would like to give a shout out to my family. This past week I have felt more appreciation for them than I have for a long time. I wanna let you guys know how much I truly love you. I feel so blessed to be able to spend eternity with you guys. Living here on earth with you is bliss, but imagining living in Heaven with you sounds so amazing.

Farrah and Rachel, thank you for your examples. I couldn't ask for better sisters seriously. I love how close we have become and I appreciate all your advice in all I do. Your guys' opinions mean so much to me, and everything you advise I really take to heart. Thanks for everything. Chad and Jake, you guys are the bomb.com. I love watching you father your children. It helps me find someone that I could potentially marry. I look in them for characteristics that you guys have. I love you. Alix and Kobie, what can I say about you huh? True blessings to the family. I get teary eyed thinking about the life you could have had if you hadn't been placed in our home. I'm sorry I tease you guys all the time and I'm not the nicest always but just know that I love you unconditionally. Now that you are maturing and getting older I like to hang out with you more and see what your lives are like. You're so much fun. Mom and Dad, words cannot express the love I have for you two. I can't think of better parents, honestly. I know that whenever I need to talk about something I can go to you guys and come out feeling so good about myself, so relieved, humbled, and loved. Thanks for all you do for the family and I. Jamie, Angie, Shawn and B, you all know I love you :) Also, to my best friend, you really are the best. I miss ya, love you, and it'll be nice to see you soon haha :)

I think I got everyone in there, sorry for the weird post. It's been a weird day so far haha. Tune in again soon!!
Borris

Update...

...I know it's been forever! I just haven't had the desire really to update my blog, but here I am and it's about time if I don't say so myself :)

Well first things first I have moved out. Exciting right? I am living in Orem in an apartment just west of the freeway off the university parkway exit. It's actually a lot of fun. Besides the fact that I am the only one who cleans the apartment, does the dishes, cleans out the nasty microwave, mops, vacuums, sweeps, basically everything. But you know what? I don't really mind cuz I enjoy cleaning actually. I am sharing a room with Autumn and it's awesome. She and I have always gotten along, and we've known each other for a long time. She lives up the street from my house in Alpine so we have been in the same ward and everything for a while. She's clean, which is fantastic, and she's funny, which is even more fantastic haha. Every night is like a sleep over, I seriously fall asleep laughing every night, we say some pretty funny things before we go to sleep.

School is going good. I am learning a lot and working hard. I am staying ontop of things in my classes and staying caught up, unlike some of the other classes I took in previous years. Wish I had been a lil smarter those years haha. But it's awesome, I'm so close to the school that it makes it way easier to go to class. If any of you know me, it's hard for me to get motivated to do school work, so it's great that I'm so close to everything.

I went to my singles ward for the first time this last sunday and it was seriously sooooo good! I am so excited to become part of that ward. The relief society president is awesome. It was one of the most spiritual Sunday's I've had in a while. Plus the church is seriously 5 steps away, I love it!

Anyway I'm just gonna keep this short and sweet :) I am finally happy with things going on in my life. Pretty content with it if you will. I'm learning a lot about myself and what I am capable of and it's really refreshing and fun discovering all these things I can do that I never knew I could do.

Welp, this post is coming to a close, here are some pictures of the people I've been hanging out with while bein moved out and all.
Tune in again soon! .....Borris

HI

Well hello again! I'm back! And kind of sad to tell you the truth. Hawaii was awesome, unfortunately I don't have a charger for my camera so I couldn't take any pictures, but I will tell you everything that went down.

The first week we were there the weather was actually pretty crappy, it rained for like 4 days haha. Didn't see the sun for a while and I was so discouraged/mad/disappointed. It was Emily's first time in Hawaii and I wanted to show her everything we do there when we go, but it's hard to when it's raining and cold. But we did sit in the hot tub and watched some movies and T.V. so it wasn't too bad I guess.

We rode bikes one day to the Coconut Marketplace and ate some pizza and a MASSIVE snowcone, and while we were there THE SUN CAME OUT!!! We were so stoked. So, we packed up all our stuff, got on our bikes, rode back to the condo, got our swimmingsuits, and peddled straight to the beach. That was an awesome day. Both Emily and I got FRIED! But we didn't care much, cuz the weather was AWESOME.

Then (I can't remember the exact days) one other day, Emily and I went to the ropeswing they have there, which is about 15-20 minutes away from the condo, and it was way fun. While standing there waiting for people to go, I was getting eaten alive by mosquitos. I couldn't stand there any longer, so....I jumped off the cliff, which was actually a waterfall, into the cool, fresh water. Oh and by the way, before I jumped in I saw a lil turtle pop its head up above the water, it was way cool. Then I was treading water for like 10 minutes trying to get Emily to jump off the cliff. It was so funny watching her stand up there looking down at the water. You could tell how hard she was thinking about it. There was several times where I thought she was gonna jump, because her body kind of jolted and she stopped looking at me, then she would look at me and laugh, haha such good times. I must have had 20 mosquito bites all over my body, some lady told me while I was on the cliff haha.

Well, we went to the beach everyday. No matter what we would go, even if it was for an hour or so. The ocean is so much fun to swim in. You can ask anyone who I have swimmed in the ocean with how hard I laugh when im diving under waves. I seriously cannot stop laughing when wave after wave is tossing me under the water. I would start laughing under water then when I came out I would look at Emily and Kobie and laugh even harder! Emily's head was always a mess when she popped out. All I would see is the back of her head and her trying to get her hair out of her face and the water out of her eyes, I was laughing so hard! Sometimes I couldn't breathe. One time Kobie's legs were flailing around out of the wave as it was tossing her and you can't help but laugh at that kind of stuff. I was dying!

Anyway, enough with the rambling. On one of the last days we went on a catamaran boat ride across the Napali Coast and that was seriously such a good time! We saw spinner dolphins and turtles, and we snorkeled and saw tons of fish. Ate some good food, drank some beverages, good time eh?

I could go on and on about this trip but I think you get the gist of it :) IT WAS THE BEST! Of course I loved going with my sisters, that trip probably comes in first, but this definitely was a close second. Mom and Dad, thanks for the awesome trip, and Em thanks for bein my co-pilot and joining me on this excursion.
Tune in again,
Borris

Aloooooooooha!!

Hawaii here we come, hope you are ready for us. I am so excited to go to Hawaii. It really is one of the greatest places on earth, besides Lake Powell of course. Soakin up some rays, swimming in the ocean, bein with people you love, seeing palm trees everywhere, eating good food always, sounds pretty neat to me. If you wanna souvenir.....TOOO BAAADD! But maybe you'll get one if I think about ya :) Anyway this is a pretty pointless post, but my blog needed an update so there you have it. Love you all, tune in again and maybe you will see some pictures of strangers walkin around in speedo's or something :) you can always find some interesting people wandering the beach.

Borris

Father Dearest

Well what a wonderful day eh? I am finally updating my blog and what a better thing to talk about then my dad.
My dad is AWESOME! I have always been a daddy's girl. He and I were inseparable! We'd go fishing together, ride bikes together, hey dad remember when you had that lil seat for me on the back of your bike and I would just chill there while you would bike around? That was the best. We would play catch together, he taught me how to pitch for softball, he has taught me everything I know, literally. I know now what I am looking for for in an eternal companion because of my dads example and how much he loves my mom. He is the most caring person, he truly never thinks about himself, always about others. His testimony of the gospel is unbelievable, every time he talks about the gospel you can see in his eyes how much he loves it, and I couldn't be more grateful to have that in my home 24/7.
Dad this is a shout out to you, I love you. (I'm gettin teary just thinkin about it) You have been the best dad anyone could ask for. You've supported me in all I do and have done and for that I am forever grateful. Thanks dad for bein you, and making me laugh. Your optimism is the best, such a good example. I am so glad Heavenly Father put me into your arms, I am so happy I get to spend eternity with you dad. You're amazing and I LOVE YOU! Happy fathers day!
Also a little shout out to my brothers and brothers-in-law, you guys are the best! Chad, Jake, Shawn, and B, what great dads. I love watching you bein a dad! Sometimes its funny, but most of the time its sweet. I get to see the tender side to you guys and I love it. Such cute lil dads :) I love you guys! Happy fathers day to you too!

summertime

Summer is freaking finally here and I am so stoked on it! I have a feeling this summer is going to be a good one.

Here is a list of things I like to do in the summer :)
1. Longboarding
2. Making chili dogs
3. Laying out by the pool
4. Lake Powell (duh)
5. Hawaii (duh)
6. Drive with the windows down
7. Camping out in the backyard
8. Camping
9. Bonfires
10. Tinfoil dinners
11. Snow cones
12. Tan lines

The list goes on and on my friends, there is an endless amount of things to do in the summer and I'm so excited for it! If any of you would like to join me in any of those things just give me a call

p.s. I make a mean chili dog :)

I Love You

Well today is a special day now isn't it? It's Mothers Day! Man oh man do I have a great mom. Just thinking about her puts a lil twinkle in my eye. She is the most amazing person, she has been through everything you can imagine and look how she turned out. So amazing, so strong, pretty dang funny, willing to do anything for anyone, in other words she couldn't be a better example to her family. Lately, in the past few years, I have seen our family grow closer together because of some of the things we have gone through and I couldn't be more proud of my mom and for everything she has sacrificed for her kids. This is a shout out to you mom and I THANK YOU for bringing me up in such a warm spiritual home with good values and strong family ties. I love you mom, I hope you know how much I appreciate everything you do for me.
Also a lil shout out to my sisters and sisters in-law. I love you guys, I love watching you mother your kids, tend to their every need, being so patient with them, looking into your eyes when you hold them and love them and kiss them, such a special bond you have with your kids. I hope one day I can become as good of mothers as you guys are. Farrah, Rachel, Jamie, and Angie, thanks for your examples and I hope you guys have a great mothers day. Don't forget, I'm always watching ;) haha
Another thing I thought of that ties into this day of mothers...I watched my nephews Lennon and Evan yesterday and I really had a lot of fun. Evan seriously makes me laugh, you cannot get mad at that kid, no matter what he does. He is just too cute, and Lennon, well he has a lil mind of his own. He is probably the easiest kid to watch, he will just chill. Lie on the ground for hours at a time rolling from toy to toy. They were a lot of fun, and I gotta say, I don't know how you mothers do that everyday! I was watching probably the 2 easiest kids to watch in the world and at the end of the day I was still EXHAUSTED! Yesterday I gained a lil bit more respect for you moms :) anyway, just thought I'd share and say I LOVE YOU MOTHERS IN MY LIFE!
love, borris