Holden

Sorry Rach, but I have to post these pictures! I got the chance a few nights ago to go see my lil nephew Holden in the NICU, and what an experience it was. Farrah came along too and met Rach and I there. Her eyes were full of tears the whole time, which of course made my eyes tear also. It's such an amazing feeling being in there, all of the little babies and machines and beeping, yet so spiritual at the same time. Rach has been blessed with some awesome nurses, one in particular, Linda. Seeing her with Holden was unreal. You can tell she truly cares about this lil guy. She talks to him and takes so many pictures of him, she is honestly an angel. There is no other way to describe her. Watching her care for my sweet nephew was so touching, it makes me emotional thinking about it, she is without a doubt fulfilling her mission here by being with these sweet babies. Thanks Rach and Farr for your spirit and bringing it into that environment.

Rach, I admire your strength and positive attitude and your faith in the Lord and His plan for you. You are truly an inspiration, I love you. I feel so blessed to be around you Rachel. I can't imagine the feelings you feel right now, but I've seen a glimpse and I know its hard, but I want you to know that whatever happens, you, of all people, can and will get through it. I have no doubt in my mind that Holden will be just fine because of your unwavering faith and trust in the Lord. Your boys are so blessed to have you as their mom, really. No matter how much I spoil Lennon and give him kisses and loves, at the end of the day, he wants you. I can't imagine a greater feeling for you. Thanks for bein who you are. Sisters stick together :) I love you and I love helping you. The more time I spend with you, the better :)

Anyway here are some pictures of the lil guy, Rachel had the chance to bathe him and I'm so glad I got to be there, and snap some photo's!

Grandma's birthday/Mayci's blessing

What an awesome day today was. First of all it was fast Sunday. I love fast Sundays. I feel the spirit so much more on fast Sundays and it's usually right when I need it the most. Second of all, it was little Mayci Jo's baby blessing today. What an awesome blessing it was. Shawn, good job, you brought the spirit into the room to start the sacrament meeting off on the right foot. Third of all, Jake, Dad, and Farrah all bore their testimonies today and honestly I couldn't be more proud to be a part of the family I am. It was so good to hear the testimonies of my family members and to know how strongly they felt about the truthfulness of the Gospel. Thanks you guys for that. I cried :) Fourth of all it was my Grandma's 85th birthday today! She is such a treat. When I look at her I can't help but smile. She is an amazing person. Words cannot describe how amazing she is. Being around her you can feel how close she is to the Lord, and she truly does love you. She's a great example to us all as she serves others and LOVES EVERYONE! Thanks Grandma :) Love you.

Well, that about wraps up today, does it sound neat to you? Because it was neat. If I haven't told you before, I Love You.

-Sincerely, borris

(P.S. Mayce has definitely grown since these pictures, I just didn't have any recent ones of her :) )

Help Please

Does anyone have any ideas of what to get for a bridal shower? I don't wanna get something super expensive. Any help would be greatly appreciated!!!

-borris

Crying...

...I do it a lot. Is that normal? Is crying healthy? I swear I cry more than the average person, and I swear I cry over the dumbest things. I guess it's better to show your emotions on your sleeve then to hold them in. Sometimes I try to hold things in, and I do good for about a week, then I ALWAYS have a break down. It's pathetic really. Oh, and whenever I read Farrah's blog, it makes me cry, it really does tug at my lil heart strings. Even just looking at sweet Lennon's little face gets me so teary eyed, I am right now thinking about it. I honestly can't wait til the day comes when I am getting married in the temple. Because then, I will be able to have kids :) Whenever I hear my sisters talk about how awesome it was to be sealed to your spouse for eternity gets me super excited. Also, it motivates me to be a better person and to continue to be worthy to enter into the temple because that is what my spouse will be looking for in me. A worthy girl.

My sisters always have the best advice, and one night in particular, my sister gave me the best advice anyone could ever get. I am positive it was through the spirit that she was able to tell this to me....I'm not trying to brag, but I think a lot about others. Too much in fact. My life now is stagnent because I think too much about others and I lose myself in it all. I lose my goals in life, I lose motivation to do anything for myself and to be successful. And my sister said that I need to focus more on my own happiness. Be a little more selfish. Go to the temple more, read my scriptures more, write in my journal, hang out and date good people who have the same goals and values in life. Surround yourself with goodness and get my spirit uplifted. Build a stronger testimony of the church, it can always be strengthened.

I ramble so much it's unreal, but I don't have my journal handy so this will have to do. The bottom line is, when we struggle, when we cry about sad things, that is when we need to turn to the Lord the most. I have heard that my whole life, but never really thought it would happen to me until now. Things change, but in the end everything will work out. For now, I am going to continue doing what I'm doing, but put the Lord first in it all. Here I am crying, but whats new?

This is so long, but I wanna thank my family. I know for a fact I would not be where I am if it weren't for them. My mom has been the best through everything, she has been talking to me about it and comforting me about everything and I couldn't be more grateful for that. Just to get a call from someone and talk about nothing makes me feel good. So thanks mom. Thanks to Rachel and Farrah. I can't tell you how many times you have saved me. I love you.
Goodnight.
-borris

Sorry...

...For my last post. It was probably pretty depressing, but I don't know how else to get out my frustration other than writing. I have honestly done everything. I wish I could tell some of you whats been goin on but I can't haha. I'm sorry, that can be frustrating, but if I do end up talking to you and you ask me whats up I'll tell you...maybe. It's a MYSTERY!!! It would probably sound pretty dumb to most of you, but for some reason it's been pretty hard on me. I don't know when I will get over it, and I sure hope it comes soon because honestly, it's getting pretty old. Just gonna put it in the Lords hands. :)

On a lighter note, I couldn't be more excited to go to Hawaii in a few days. It'll be so nice to get out of here and enjoy the sunlight and the beach. I am conviced the ocean is God's most beautiful creation (other than the mountains). It's full of life. There is endless amount of living that we know so LITTLE about. It's amazing to me. I wish I could explore it more. It'd be a cool adventure, I think.

Also, my sisters blog the other day made me realize something that is pretty important. Friendship. I think to help be a good friend to others you have to be your own best friend. This is something I struggle with, and it sucks. I am slowly learning not to care what others think about my appearance or about who they think I am because of my physical nature, because those are the kind of people that don't care about you. Anyway...thanks Farr's for giving me that "ah ha!" moment.

Rach and I have been spending a lot of time together and it's been the best, especially at this time. Lil Lennon is quite the angel. Just looking at that kid makes my day. Thanks for talkin with me and giving me words of comfort. You have no idea how much that means to me, honestly.

Mommy and Daddy, you've heard it a million times but its true, you are the best parents in the world! Thanks for your support and endless amount of love. Hope you know how much I love and appreciate you guys.

Anyway...I'll stop rambling. Look forward to some totally tubular pictures from Havvvaaiii!

-borris

Change (read at your own cost) :)

I need a change. Or, I need to change. There are things in my life that I get so frustrated about and so mad at myself about and it really does take its toll on me. There are things in my life I need to change and there are some people in my life I need to bring closer, and some I need to push away.

Not too long ago, I was filling out my mission papers. I was so ready and committed to this change in my life and so excited for the new adventures I would have and the interesting people I would get to meet. But, something occurred to me while I was reading my scriptures and praying and going to the temple...I realized that I need to do these things everyday. Preparing for this mission, I think, has actually been preparing me for something else. Whether it be marriage, or going to BYU Hawaii, or I'm not exactly sure what, but I have an overwhelming feeling that that is the Lords plan for me.

So, for now I am trying to change. I am trying to be happy, I am trying to do what is right and in all reality, that is exactly what life is all about. Doing your best. Sometimes I wish I could go back and change things in the past because things now would be so much different, but I can't, and it sucks, but there is nothing I can do about it now besides living in the now. I'm sorry, I'm just rambling and venting, but I need to get this out somehow.

I am excited for change, but at the same time, it isn't easy. Life is hard. But I have so many things I need to be grateful for. Count my blessings. I love you, I love Heavenly Father, and I love life! (sometimes) :) anyway...sorry you had to read this, it's just been driving me nuts.

-Sincerely, borris

I Wish...

...I could play these,
I'm gonna try, but I may not be successful. But at least I'm gonna try. I would give you an update, but there is nothing to give an update on. My life is still just as boring and non-eventful as it was before. All I have to say is that I have the best family in the world, I love them with every fiber of my being. I am truly blessed.


Sincerely, Borris